Tuesday, August 17


Have you ever reflected on your life? The choices you've made, the paths you've chosen, friends you made, changes been through? Have you ever thought about all the good things that have happened to you? All the things you are blessed with? The things you take for granted? I find myself thinking about bad aspects of my life, or bad things that happen and I don't like that so a while ago I decided to list 100 things i like/love about life in general. At first it took me a second but once I really got thinking, finding 100 was insanely easy and with a bit more time I could've gone to 200 or more. If i had gotten really specific my list would be pages long.I think it's important, especially when you feel low or like there is nothing good going in your life, that you think about the things you have to love or appreciate in your life. There is SOMETHING, no matter what. I definitely challenge everyone to try it, because it make me happy just thinking about it. I will leave my list at the bottom for ideas or if you are just interested. :)

So I found a secret I wanted to post this week as well!

It might cut off so just incase, it reads "I intentionally missed my flight because I saw a guy in line wearing a turban. I was terrified but I didn't feel guilty."

So some people would consider this racist, some would consider it stereotypical, some would considerate it totally legit and some just plain stupid. It made me think, where is the line between you know.. intolerance and stereotypes? I don't know if this situation would make me nervous just because i'm a pretty tolerant person and I try not to be stereotypical. I'm open-minded and smart enough to know that just because there are cultures who wear turbans who have committed terrotist acts does not mean every person you see wearing a turban is a terrorist or a bad person at all. there are people of every color, shape, size, religion, race, etc who are horrible people - terrorists, rapists, murderers, liars, cheats, etc etc etc. But I certainly do have stereotypes and I find it hard to shake them, even if they are little. I think that the best thing we can do is to just try our best to see every person as a person and not as a race or a religion or even an age, sexuality, gender. where do you think the line is? would you cancel your flight solely because a man wearing a turban was present?

lastly, if you read my list at the end, you may notice that pretty harmonies is one of them. it was inspired by this video that a friend posted on facebook. these dudes are amazing. they have beautiful voices, they have those most amazing arrangements and the harmonies are just outrageously good. i love them. im totally in love. my heart is melted in a puddle because of these guys. so at least check out this video im posting and if you are into it i suggest : fireflies, it's very pretty. then hero/heroine and possibly a little 'in my head'. oh yeh. jason derule. its pretty interesting. then justinrobinettmusic is like..a leg to their channel and i think it smostly just the one dude and he does a very nice cover of the only exception by paramore which i would check out..or.i guess i already did but .. if i was you . anyways. do it. now

So..thats it! . Haha. Quite a lot really. Big Love!. xo

100 things i like and/or love :)
1. My best friend
2. My Yankee blankee
3. Phone calls from my nephew
4. Clementines
5. The colour purple
6. My mother
7. Microwaveable things ie: soup, pizza pockets, alphaghetti, etc.
8. Rummi, as in the card game
9. Shopping online
10. Quetzaltenango, Guatemala
11. Watching movies
12. Pictures
13. Big Brother (the tv show)
14. Traveling
15. Friends
16. My izzle group and our reunions
17. Spanish
18. Boots
19. The smell that comes from the dryer through the little vent that leads to outside a house
20. Tide to go
21. Latinos
22. Smoothies
23. Scented Markers
24. Having money
25. The orphanage
26. Greys Anatomy
27. Notes/Bulletins
28. Bananas
29. Diana’s (my xela house mom) spaghetti
30. Harry Potter Series (including the movies)
31. Tye die
32. Cuddling
33. Pot lucks
34. Old charismatic cars
35. The Beach
36. Kayaking
37. Endorphins
38. Gambling
39. Kraft Dinner
40. Clear Skin
41. Tenting
42. Long talks
43. Peppermint Tea
44. Cuddling in blankets when cold
45. Laughing/Smiling
46. Piano
47. Respect
48. Pretty scents
49. Cool sunglasses
50. Baby laughs
51. Kissing
52. Texting a boy you like.
53. Pictures
54. Blogging
55. Postsecret
56. Reading Jodi Picoult novels
57. Long emails from friends
58. Meeting new interesting people
59. Trying new things
60. Meaningful tattoos
61. Seeing a couple who look like they are in love
62. Mutual lust
63. Lipstick
64. Natural beauty
65. Puns
66. Body butter
67. Grade 12 biology
68. Sarcasm
69. Grand Manan
70. Minigolf
71. Facebook
72. Forever 21
73. Invisible Children
74. Harry Potter
75. Songs with memories attached to them
76. Pretty harmonies
77. Eye liner
78. Jungle jims
79. Crazy hair
80. Nose rings
81. Sexually explicit raps
82. Tie dye
83. Volleyball
84. Authentic grand manan events
85. Funky/antique/oldschool jewelry
86. Hugs
87. Millers pond
88. Making money
89. Fresh, salty air
90. Christmas
91. Hearing a good song you havn’t heard in a while
92. Lazy Sundays at Rachie’s
93. Chat roulette with friends
94. Fun hats/banadanas
95. Online shopping
96. Writing funny songs off the top of my head
97. Partying
98. Seeing people’s true colors
99. My amazing,diverse and fun family
100. My Health

Thursday, August 12



So I'm going to post a video to a dance for you. If you watch So You Think You Can Dance, you have probably seen it. I don't watch the show, but a lot of my friends do, and one posted this video on youtube and I had to watch it. I decided to post it because it moved me so much. Then I decided to kind of write a blog about that sort of thing because I've been noticing it so much lately. Not youtube videos or So You Think You Can Dance but.. the things in life that send shivers up your spine, or move you, or inspire you. For some people a basketball game can be emotional, or a good movie. Because I'm a baby, a lot of things make me emotional, I cry in tv shows and movies. But some things move me, I feel it in my bones and in my heart and this video was one of the things. The story behind it was amazing and the way they portrayed it through dance was amazing. It's insane how you can portray so many things through art - playing an instrument, singing, acting, writing, painting and in this case dancing. There are so many mediums through which you can express yourself or be inspired. For me it's singing and playing piano. It doesn't matter how I'm feeling, I can sit down at my piano and learn a song or do one I already know and if I'm happy I can kind of soak it up and play about it and if I'm sad I can release it through it. I think it's important that we find something like that for ourselves. Whether it's going for a run, or taking a nap or playing cards or whatever it might be.. find some place where you are you and you can release anything negative and bask in anything positive.

So here is the video (I have to link you because I couldn't find any that would let me embed, due to copyright issues Im guessing.)


Some other videos that I remember from past seasons that I thought were good are :

Lacey and Kameron - Dancing
Katee and Twitch - Mercy
Chelsie and Mark - Bleeding Love

I'm sure there are some amazing dances but I don't really watch tv so I have a hard time following shows like this.

Anyways.. I hope this week has been great for everyone and if you live on GM, I hope you got out in the sun cause it's been beautiful!. xo biglove

Monday, August 9



This picture is of a real wall at a festival called The Burning Man festival. Google it if you want, I don't know TONS about it, but anyways. I love the concept and decided to post it because I've been thinking today about how scared I am to leave.

I'm leaving for Europe in October. I'm super excited, the family I am living with seem like they are going to be great. I'm going to be an au pair and the girls are going to be great I can tell, and their mom Abby seems super great, think i will get on with her super well. Honestly, there isn't much more I could ask for. The thing I'm scared about is making friends. I've never had an issue making friends really, I like everyone and find it extremely easy to talk to just about anyone. But going to a new country, to a town, where everyone has their own friends and its a different culture..it just makes me nervous. Usually you just need one link, one person you know who can kind of kick start your social life in a new place. I don't have that at all.

In Guatemala it was easy. First of all, I had 4-5 different roomates by the time I left and a lot of them had a bunch of friends by the time I got there that I connected with. Then I worked at an orphanage AND went to a spanish school, and lets face it, being not guatemalan makes you stand out and it was easy to find people who could speak english and who you had tons in common with because i mean.. you both went to guatemala, you prob had SOMETHING you could talk about together. and on top of that, all the locals were super friendly so i made friends with them as well. it's not that i think europeans are rude or anything, but people aren't going to approach me for fun, i'm just another person with my own things going on to them, if they notice me at all, they wont know im canadian and friendless. im sure i will meet people somehow im just realizing how different its going to be than guatemala. I think that I will get along good with the family but i don't want to constantly be under abbys feet.. i dunno. anyways..now im just ranting! aha.

Basically.. my blog was going to be about fear. And facing it. Looking in the eyes and saying fuck you, excuse my francais. I try to do things that scare me and this one is going to be big on the list. I have a good feeling about it though.. I'm keeping optimistic. i was super nervous about my trip to guatemala last august/september and it turned out to be the best thing that has ever happened to me so I can't let my fear of being a loser get in the way, hahaha! I guess i could use the age old tactic of going to a bar alone, having too many drinks, and approaching complete strangers. whatever works, eh?

i didnt see a secret this week that particularly spoke to me so i didnt post one. there were a few about people being scared of this generation of kids coming up and i can't even get started on that subject, lol.

so i wish i had something ACTUALLY interesting to say but i honestly don't. i've just been working and hanging out with my amazing friends when i can. i HAVE met more people though, especially after this last shameful weekend i just had, so I must be getting close to my goal of 15 new friends. Yizzzayyy. When i move to europe I will definitely be posting some at least half interesting blogs im sure and maybe even some vlogs, pretty crazy stuff for sure. aha

Anyways, I think that's all from me, to my two readers, probably Tam and Maddy, i love you guys .haha

PS. I have a fun little story. I was picking up Maddy for a slushie run and I parked like..perpendicular to her house about a meter from it. These kids were driving by on their bikes and I dunno if it was for fun or to be entertaining but one of the kids went through the space, instead of around my car, and at the exact same time maddy opened the door and biffed the kid on the bike. HA. i guess you kinda had to be there but its funny, i promise.
ok. adioss...

Monday, August 2

August Rush

August Rush is such a good movie, if you havn't seen it, you should. Good soundtrack too, which you will enjoy more if you like the movie most likely.

Anyways, the title and that little ramble has nothing to do with anything. August is here though, I welcome you August! The summer has been pretty awesome so far, I've had some fun, relaxed, tanned, spent time with friends, partied and have been trying to make the best of the time I spend away from work! So just to update quickly on the Summer Bucket List for anyone(also know as no one) who is interested, I have only succesfully completed 5 of the 14 things I listed. I have two months left (I said I was giving myself through to the end of September) but I better get crackin' I'd say! The ones I have done are : Jumped off the high diving board, jumped off the wharf, slept under the stars, Tea Time and Magic Mountain! They were all pretty awesome. Jumping off the wharf was such a rush, I honestly recommend it to anyone who likes a little adrenaline rush. The tide was pretty low so it was a nice little drop. The same night my friends and I made a home made slip n slide and honestly.. that should've been on my list but oh well, it was fucking awesome. It was the most fun I'd had in a really long while. See my facbeook for pictures, aha. I have also befriended over half of my goal. so..YAY!

So a quick shout out to my friends youtube. He just bought a videocam and has started capturing some of the crazy antics him and the boys get up to. To see some pretty interesting videos, check his youtube out, it is http://www.youtube.com/user/jasong1342 I recommend Tequila Group Puke :)I kind of want to add the Cliff Jumping they do to my bucket list..we'll see!

To motivate me into being a little more dedicated to my bloggeroo, I think each Sunday or monday I'm going to post my favorite sunday secret from postsecret.com, my favorite site. I've done a blog post about it I'm pretty sure. So hopefully when i look at the sunday secrets, I will think..you need to post your favorite one and you might as well write a nice blog about something interesting while you are add it. and VITO!!

Okay. Soooo.. very last thing I wanted to mention is the most hilarious youtube video. It's a girl basically teaching other ugly girls how to make yourself appear attractive. It's pretty accurate, really. hahaha. So I had it posted on my facebook but if you didn't see it or you don't have me on facebook, check it out.


Alright. Have a fun summer, do what you want, you only live once, HAVE FUNNNN!. xo


PS. I chose this as my favorite secret not because I feel I have huge boobs or anything like that but because everything is relative. Some girls might be sad because they want huge boobs but then if you have huge boobs you are insecure because sometimes people may define you by it, or you think it's the only thing people notice and they are always looking. Small boobs, big boobs, no boobs - everyone gets insecure and we always wish for what we don't have. Just try to be happy with what you have because you're probably great no matter what.

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