Friday, December 31

a whole new year!

Oh hey 2011. So weird. 2011.. it even looks weird. I honestly can’t believe its 2011 – I’m going to be twenty this year. Excuse my French, but that shit is messed up. In some twisted bailey way I feel like 2010 went so fast but soooo slow. I guess that would be partly because it was so uneventful.. it just all blurred and slugged along but since I can’t remember any of it it seems as though it went fast.

I know people say this all the time but I have a REALLY good feeling about 2011. This past year for me has been a year of no achievement – I literally did nothing with myself besides work and make bad decisions. I have sometimes scattered and unsure plans for 2011 but they are big plans and I truly intend to make it a fabulous year no matter where I end up, what I do or who I meet – I believe in 2011! Haha.

Do you have your new years resolutions ready? I can’t believe I still feel so seriously about new years resolutions after 20 years (okay..10 years i suppose) of making a million and accomplishing one most likely by mistake. I suppose there is nothing wrong with wanting to be a better person or do better for yourself or for others, at least it’s in your head. This year I really am going to try to put forth an effort with somethings. In 2010 I finally stopped chewing my nails which wasn’t one of my resolutions but I’m glad it happened and it should've been on my list..then I would’ve accomplished something! Aha.

So I’m trying to compile a HUGE list of resolutions for the new year so that a)I am being more cautious about being a better me for myself and for friends/family/strangers and b)I figure if I did about 1 for 10 in 2010..then if I try for 100 and I get 10 in 2011...that’s 10 things I’m doing better or at all aha. Probably a stupid theory but one I’m going to put to the test anyway! So here is a list of things I wish to accomplish or.. get better at..or WHATEVER in 2011.

Maybe you are making a list, maybe you aren’t. Either way...have an amazing 2011. Make it your best year, and continue to try new things and make everyday better than the one before. Do what makes you happy, no matter what anyone thinks. Time flies.. faster and faster each year and eventually I want us all to be able to look back and regret nothing and be satisfied with how we lived our lives and how much we loved everyone and what we did to make our life really mean something special. Happy New Year, everyone!

Bailey’s Resolutions for 2011
Eat less meat!
Stop using the word gay as a slang word.
Listen and experience more music.
Get a tattoo.
Build my self esteem.
Eat more organically; reduce processed foods in my diet.
Exercise more often.
Write more often.
Do things that scare the shit out of me.
Become more independant.
Have my first real relationship. (Maybe i’m going a bit overboard?)
Climb something ridiculous.
Let everyone know how much I love them.
Acquire a cute pair of heels and wear them with confidence.
Make someone feel beautiful.
Do something dramatic with my hair.
Explore a new religion
Become more fluent in Spanish
Learn to cook.
Feel pretty.
Buy and wear a bathing suit.
The list goes on but.. who cares? Aha.

There you go!
So goodbye 2010, I won’t miss you much. Thanks for any new friends and good times (and believe me, I did have a few!) but I’m ready for bigger, better things. Cheers.

Tuesday, December 28

Decluttering my life.

I’ve been feeling really inspired to write all day. I don’t know if inspired would be the right word but just stressed out and worked up over life to the point where I needed to let loose a bit in the form of writing. I’m mostly stressed out with the fact that I’m leaving so soon and have no plan and nothing figured out. I was suppose to leave in October and I’ve done well to stick around until now. My life has really been going backwards for the past year of being on Grand Manan and I’m just ready to figure it out and get out of here. Don’t get me wrong, Grand Manan is beautiful and home..but I’m melting into a pile of nothingness here!!

So when I get stressed out about that sort of stuff I tend to clean,and organize as some metaphoric was of attempting to clean and organize my life. Tonight I threw out 2 garbage bags full of clothes and 2 more of garbage from my room I felt no use for anymore. I have to say – it feels good and it’s a start to organizing my future. While I was digging I found a card that Gina got me and I really liked it – it’s just a cute one but it has The AbC’s of lifes journey in it and I really loved it and wanted to share it with whoever wanted to listen. I think if I try to stick to these ABC’s for 2011 or if anyone does.. we will feel more satisfied and feel more clarity with everything (lame sounding, I know but try!)So I’m just going to share them for tonight and then I will prob write again soon about my crazy hectic head and where the hell my life is going. I hope everyone’s break is amazing, mine finishes tonight but I have thoroughly enjoyed the last few days with friends and family – I truly needed it! Happy New Year !!
The ABC’s of Life’s Journey
Appreciate who you are
Be nice to everybody
Choose your own Road
Dodge negativity
Envision your destination
Flaunt your fabulousness
Go where your heart leads
Have Faith
Investigate life’s twists and turns
JUMP!
Keep on keepin on
Laugh lots
Make Friends
Never Litter
Observe the scenery
Play often
Quit Worrying
Relax
Stop and smell the flowers
Take it one step at a time
Unload your excess baggage
Venture into the unknown
Walk a mile in someone else’s shoes
X-pect the best
Yield to fun
Zone out occasionally – its good for you!

So ...if we all tried at least one of these every once in a while, I think we’d be a bit more satisfied!

I think I will write again soon about everything and maybe some new years resolutions.. and I want to know everyone else’s! I had a list of 11 last year and I think I did 2.. good work, bail lol

Until next time. xoxo.

PS. I havn’t gained any weight over the holiday and I have no clue how it is possible – did anyone else eat EVERYTHING THEY SAW over the break? Cause I totally did. FOOD EVERYWHERE! I’m going to have to eat water and kelp for months.

pps. i've been into a few random youtube musicians lately and i just wanted to put a few names out there for people who are looking for real people, with real talent.. cause some of these people are insane. so go to youtube and search around for the following :

justin robinett
tyler ward
ahmir
sam tsui
christina grimmie
mike tompkins (pbpproductions - you have to see him!)

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