Saturday, March 31

im leaving on a jet plane.

That's right. In 3 weeks my bestie Courtney and I are headed to Varadero in CUBA!!I have never been to cuba, never been to a resort and Court and I have never traveled together. It is going to be such a fun time with some great new experiences. I can't imagine going with anyone else - we are going to have a BALL! Court and I have been friends since kindergarten so not only are we really close but we are a pretty sweet drinking team! Here are some pictures for proof.


It's always interesting and fun when we are together so a whole week of sunshine and partying sounds like a pretty good plan to me! I am so excited for temperatures that are above zero, fruity drinks and finally having A TAN!! We planned this trip forever ago but it didnt hit me until this week that its coming up so quick. YAY! So in my excitement I made this blog. :)

In other news, the challenge is going well. Im still focused and Im going to kick some ass. It would be awesome to lose about 40lbs before I go to cuba but I've heard 40lbs in 3 weeks is unhealthy and unrealistic so I guess I will give up that dream. I will officially weigh in on Monday and let you guys know how my first week went!

For now I will leave you with some glorious pictures of Cuba to make you wish you were coming with me next month.

Big Loveee,
Bailey



Source: vicuba.com via Michelle on Pinterest


Monday, March 26

195 Challenge

I've decided I need to challenge myself. Maybe I do better when I'm under pressure, working towards an attainable goal or trying to win - yeh - im a bit competitive.

I've been so off track. Not like gain 15lbs off track or never get off the couch offtrack. Im definitely the scale keeps going up then down and then up off track though and cant get motivated off track. It's not fun and I'm never going to get anywhere doing that. I need to really step it up!

I've decided to set a weight goal for my birthday! My birthday is in 9 weeks and I want to lose 2lbs a week. I know that sounds a little unrealstic but im shooting for the moon so i can land among the stars or some shit like that. I actually think I can do this, I think I can do more if i put my mind to it and I'm ready to get out of this stupid fucking 211-213 rut.

So right now I'm at 213 and the goal for May 28th is 195lbs (which explains the name of my post - so clever). I've also decided that I'm going to wear and look/feel amazing in the dress (that i love and have wanted to wear for 3 months now) that my mother got me for Christmas. I'm going to take a picture of me in it now and then do before/after pics with birthday pictures in 2 months.

I realize it won't be easy, especially because I have a weeks vacation to Cuba planned and it isn't the easiest thing to maintain let alone lose on vacation. But if you watch the Biggest Loser (which I do and Im obsessed with) you know that it IS possible to lose on vacation and I can do it if I stay focused. Maybe I will get food poisoning and make a big loss! haha kidding.. sorta.

2lbs a week is pretty intense but I know I can do it and I'm going to need your guys help! If someone wants to join with me and set some sort of goal that always makes it easier. I definitely need a bit of support. Lately I've felt like no one even reads my blog anymore and I've been down in the dumps about that and everything else! So I need to get my spirits up and find the OOMPH that i need to not only lose the weight but to be happy and start bringing you guys some better, more inspirational blogs.

Thanks for the past and future support. xo
Big Love
Bailey.

I hated posting these so much but a deal is a deal. This is me today (after i woke up so no make up or anything.. atleast I can say that) at 213. I hate these pictures. I hate my body. The picture from the back makes me want to crawl in bed and cry all day - who would ever date a girl who looks like that? I have no idea. I look like shit and Im shaped like a monster. But this is my body and this is what im working with so.. here I come 195.


Sunday, March 25

Lessons Life Teaches Me

Truro wasn't the best decision I ever made. It wasn't the worst either. The worst decision I ever made.. well.. I don't know what it was! I make bad decisions all the time and even when they are bad it doesn't mean there was no gain, it just means I done-did something stupid. I won't be the first person and I won't be the last. The thing about bad decisions is that if you keep your mind and your eyes and your heart open - you usually learn something from them and that's what Im choosing to do with my experience living in Truro.

Truro isn't awful and I'm not unhappy. I've only been here two weeks so you never know - it could turn into something amazing. The truth is that I'm not sure I have a place here. I went to the bar with a friend last night in hopes of making some friends. I ended up meeting a really nice girl from Moncton named Grace who is also new to Truro so that was great. Other than her though, no one seemed very friendly or like someone I could have a good conversation with. I just wasn't digging the scene.

So maybe I will go home thinking - okay, waste of time and money. But at least now I know where I DON'T want to live. That right there, my friends, is a lesson learned! I'm also learning independence, how to cook, how to drive better and all kinds of random factoids. The biggest part of this journey though is that it's a part of the journey - its a part of my story and contributes to me and my growth into a cool being.

While searching the net today I found a list called "111 Lessons Life Taught us". I related to so many and I found a few that I think deserve a special mention. So here is my condensed favorites list of Lessons Life Has Taught Me. Enjoy !
Big Love,

  • No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn’t trying.
  • Pursuing happiness by acquiring material things is like jogging to the grocery store on your treadmill: it won’t get you anywhere.
  • Laugh at stupid jokes. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. It’s the small moments that make life grand.
  • Start by asking yourself whether each of your relationships drags you down or lifts you up. Surrounding yourself with positive, loving people is half the battle of living a happy, successful life.
  • Embrace change. As uncomfortable as it is sometimes, change allows us to stretch and grow. New things feel awkward and scary at first, but those feelings go away, and you are left with something bigger and bolder in your life.
  • Nobody ever feels 100% ready when an opportunity arises. Because most great opportunities in life force us to grow emotionally and intellectually. They force us to stretch ourselves and our comfort zones, which means we won’t feel totally comfortable at first. And when we don’t feel comfortable, we don’t feel ready
  • Even when you feel like you have nothing, someone else likely has far less. Find them and help them. You’ll see why.
  • If you want something in your life you’ve never had, you’ll have to do something you’ve never done.
  • Being open-minded is the key to more knowledge. If you want to know more about the world you have to keep an open mind. You have to give people and things a chance.
  • Never regret. If it’s good, it’s wonderful. If it’s bad, it’s experience.
  • Having a thousand credentials on the wall will not make you a decent human being. But genuinely helping one person everyday will.
  • Trying to be somebody you’re not is not sexy. Be you. That’s when you’re beautiful.

To read all 111 click here :)

Tuesday, March 20

I Gained 3lbs

It's true. I gained 3lbs. I've been off track.

I've been eating shitty (even without the sugar) and until this week I had taken a complete hiatus from physical activity. The stress of my move was tough and when Im dealing with emotional crisis I turn to food. I read a great blog over at Skinny Jeans Dreams about food addiction and how she will always have to track her food and write down what she eats to remain on track. I believe I will be like this too - I always have to stay in check or I gain weight - just like I did this week.

I was down to 210 and I weighed in the other day at 213. It is back down 1.5lbs so that makes me happy but I have to stay focused. I had a chat with my sister in law from Live Happe and finally talking about it really helped me think it through. I have been feeling frustrated because I expected to have lost at least 50lbs by march and I've been stalled at -40lbs for what feels like forever. But this is my journey and all of the unexpected twists and turns and victories and failures are mine - I cant set rules to it all the time because its going to go the way it goes. Yes, this loss has been pretty slow but it was a loss and I've kept it off and Im a better version of Bailey.

Talking to her helped and the next morning I got out of my bed, put on my jogging shorts, had a piece of toast and hit the road - its on like donkey kong. I have to do this. I have to lose this weight. For myself, for my future, for my health and a small part of me is doing it for others. I feel a certain level of pressure from my blog to lose the weight since Im so public about it but I like that. I also want to keep inspiring others - thats a huge goal. If I can do it, anyone can do it. So I'm gonna do it - one step at a time!

And it is one step at a time. Sometimes its baby steps. No one is going to just lose it. It's not going to be easy for anyone. Whether its 5lbs or 150lbs losing weight and keeping it off are never easy and there is no easy route (you all know how I feel about fad diets aha). The thing is.. I want it. I want it more than anything. I need to stop getting in my own way and letting life get in the way but at the same time I need to accept that its going to be hard to the bitter end and I have to deal with the obstacles and not give up. And I wont.

So I'm back on track, I promise. I won't let myself down and I won't let you guys down! Yesterday I went for a nice run and my eating is stellar. This morning I made a veggie omelet - what the fuck - WHO AM I? aha. Kidding. Living alone and having to cook for myself is proving to be interesting but in a really cool way. Now I just need some warm whether for more bearable runs. Thursday in Truro is giving 21 degrees - HOLLLLAA!

Before I jet just thought I would give 2 shout outs :

1)To my mama! She is leaving on a big trip with my brother and his family and Im wishing her safe travels - have an amazing time mom! you deserve it!

2)To my friend Emma! Last week she left for China for two months! She is going to be amazing (she is teaching!) and I hope she gets absolutely everything possible out of this experience! She has a blog which she has promised she will be update while there so check her out at Head Up, Heart Strong

Big love - i seriously love my readers!
Bail

PS. Im thinking about starting a segment called "Only In Truro" where I post pictures of the crazy shit I see in this town - seriously, its a weird town. What do ya'll think?? xx

PPS. Today is FOUR weeks no sugar! I dunno about you guys but I am SO proud of myself aha. Im also surprised.. wtf! aha


Saturday, March 17

Strange New Land

Hi Hi Hi Readers who I feel I have abandoned. I had a nice half post written up the other day but it seems to have disappeared so here I am starting from scratch! Now.. I realize that my post says I'm in a strange new land which is a bit of an exaggeration because I've been to Truro before but it is definitely strange being there. I've also realized that I am a bit strange. Yes, I know, you're all "What da fuck? You just figuring this out" No, I've always knowingly been a fucking weirdo but I'm just noticing it more here. Here are 3 examples :

1) I am ALWAYS alone when I live on Grand Manan and typically okay with it. I work with the public but it was slow and I worked long shifts aone. When I wasn't working I went to the gym alone, I went home alone, if it was late my parents went to bed and I ate alone and hung out alone. I was all alone. I was a bit miserable on certain days but comfortable. I love alone time and after a day of being around everyone I can't wait to go home and be alone. Now? I am devastatingly alone. My roomie works like a champ and is rarely home long enough to eat or sleep let alone hang out - I am desperate for friends. The sad thing is that it was 4 days and I felt that way! I almost asked the girl who sold me my phone to hang out.. WHAT? Yeah. It's sad. Since when can I not be alone??

2) I have no qualms throwing myself into countries I've never been to where I don't speak the language, understand the currency or know where im going/staying or what I'm doing yet in Truro I'm a mess. I am so anxious everywhere I go and shy to ask anyone for help, directions or just to say Hi. It is so messed up. I used to talk to whoever while I traveled..and I didn't even speak their language! I'm a knob.

3) At home I bomb around in Blue Steel like laws are no object. If I had a dollar for every time I raced down the back road going 100 to get to work on time I'd have a dollar for every single shift I've ever worked. My theory is that life is too short to waste time being early for shit so I just cram things into a smaller amount of time - right? lol In Truro I drive like a little old lady and I get nervous every single time I go anywhere. This will make me sound like a huge hick but I'm honestly not used to so many stop signs, traffic lights, 4 way stops and lanes! I'm from an island where traffic lights don't exist. I'm not used to not at least having a friend with me in the city coaching me when I'm not sure what to do. It's scary as fuck!

I know, small town girl in the big city, I'm making a fool of myself. My biggest issue right now is not the traffic though, I just need to find a job and make some friends. I got so lonely that I ended up coming back to New Brunswick (Fredericton to see friends - not the whole way home) for the weekend. The thought of sitting alone on, not just any Saturday night but St.Patricks day, made me feel so alone! Im not one to miss a good time so I picked up and came to Fredericton. It was that or sit alone at a bar where I know zero people. I'd have to be out of my mind drunk for that one I think.

Coming here made me feel so guilty though. I only lasted four days? Really? I havn't even told my mother yet because I felt like she'd be ashamed of me. Why couldn't I just stay for more than 4 days and make friends? It's not that easy when you have no connections..I moved so I would experience new things and all I was experiencing was unpacking and tetris.

I will be going back tomorrow and I will continue trying to settle into my new home. I am going to put in more effort and I will eventually get a job and make friends, I know I will. . I just need to keep faith and not get discouraged - things will hopefully fall into place soon. But why not enjoy the freedom of not living on an island while I can? I dont have a ferry schedule dictating my own schedule and being able to take off when I can is actually really amazing.

Yes, I don't have a job and it's expensive to come to a city 3 hours away but money isn't going with me when I die, might as well do it up - one life right? Besides - if you know me at all, you know I have money saved off just in case I need to take off to some foreign country. I have no commitments right now and life is short. I was feeling guilty and my friend said "Will you look back and think of the money spent or think of the memories we make" and I decided I will remember neither when I'm old enough but I'd rather remember having fun and worrying less.

Before I sign off I'd like to ask for some advice from you guys. If you have ever moved to a new town, without a friend in sight, what was your game plan? How did you make friends and how long did it take you to do so? What would be my best POA? I've considered making a POF friendship account - sounds a bit risky though as the last thing I want is a relationship in Truro. Let me know what you think and as always..

Big Love!
Bailey.

PS. HAPPY St.Partys Day!!!!

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Monday, March 12

manic sunday, monday..maybe even tuesday.


Yesterday was a day and a half. Celebratory drinks were drunk sat night and with the time change I swear I could have slept until about 3pm. Instead, I woke up at noon because I knew I should be responsible and pack+prepare for my big move (that happens in about 45 mins). Actually my mother bribed me out of bed with pancakes.. same difference.

I tried to be productive but it wasn't happening. I had a nap not long after waking up and eventually packed all my stuff into my car which I am really appreciating now.I was a ball of nerves and anxiety all day, a more intense version of what I have been for over a week now . I'm not anxious about anything in particula
r just the thought of moving to a new place with no friends and no job and Im a generally anxious person. No need to fret though - I quit my job here and only one of my friends remains on the island so I might as well throw myself somewhere else and say that I tried something new. If I don't like it the solution is simple - I will come home for the summer.

I don't really enjoy goodbyes but to be honest, I'm sort of good at them. I've grown up living on an island separated from the greater part of my family. There was summer camp, student leadership conferences and eventually travels where I was meeting new people and making aesome new friendships were I eventually had t
o say goodbye - its sort of a part of life, you cant always be around everyone and everything you love.

So instead of dwelling on the people and places and things and comforts of being home that I will miss I thought I'd throw together a list of things I won't fucking miss at all to help this move flow a little smoother!
I won't miss needing to take a ferry to be a par
t of civilization (including malls, movie theatres, restaurants etc.)

I won't miss not having a nice restaurant to go to.

I won't miss the gym where nothing works, no one puts back their weights and the feeling of overpopulation after 3 people are in the room.

I won't miss dreading the Mondays where I go back work and my friends who came home for the weekend head back to school.

I won't miss being the joke, being picked on and made to feel inadequate (which i wasnt, thanks) every day.

I won't miss doing everything alone (probably because I may STILL be doing everything alone) and spending friday nights laying in bed on Pinterest.
I won't miss the rotten vegetables and shitty health food selection.

I won't miss feeling like I'm on a fucking hamster wheel just going through the motions of everyday , never moving forward or backward. I won't miss feeling like I haven't lived or taken a chance in months.
Of course there are people and things I will miss - that is a given. But sometimes, in order to give yourself that push, you have to remind yourself what you are running to so that you keep going.

Hoping to give you guys some good blogs soon but until then, wish me luck on this journey and pray that I find a full time job where I'm moderately happy soon!
Big big love.
Bailey.
summer freedom at home.

Wednesday, March 7

power.

I wouldn't consider myself powerful nor would I consider myself a power hungry person. The little power I have, to make any sort of change, is my voice and my blog which I use as an outlet for my voice. Usually I use my blog for myself -to say how I feel, to make myself feel better and occasionally to make someone else laugh or inspire them. Today I'm choosing to use this power that I have - that much to my surprise reaches hundreds of people in many different countries - to support something else.

If you have me on facebook or if you know me from high school you know I support Invisible Children. In High School my friend Sarah introduced me to the organization and Invisible Children GMCS was born (and died the next year i believe - not cool). A group of 10-15 of us took part in their Change For Change program and had a screening. We had some fundraisers and did okay for a first time group of kids trying to raise funds for something that wasn't a sport on our little island. It didn't particularly take off but I hold the experience and the organization close to my heart.

Don't know what Invisible Children is? Well if you have heard all the Kony 2012 news in the last 2 days, it is because of Invisible Children that it is all going down. Invisible Children is an organization that aims to take down Joseph Kony (and his army The LRA - lords resistancearmy) who have been going into towns through out uganda for over 20 years, slaughtering adults, turning the young men into child soldiers and using the women as sex slaves. Seems like a fair enough goal eh?



So what is Kony 2012?
"Invisible Children’s KONY 2012 campaign aims to make Joseph Kony famous, not to celebrate him, but to raise support for his arrest and set a precedent for international justice. In this case, notoriety translates to public support. If people know about the crimes that Kony has been committing for 26 years, they will unite to stop him. Secondly, they want Kony to be famous so that when he is stopped, he will be a visible, concrete example of international justice. Lastly this event has been formed to not only raise awareness of Joesph Kony, but to encourage social justice on a global level. Where you live shouldn't determine if you live."

I am elated over the support I have seen so quickly for Kony 2012 - on facebook, from people who I misjudged and never thought would care about something like this and on the news, in the blogging world , even on my weight loss site -everywhere! The thing is, I also see everywhere that Snooki is pregnant or married or some other bullshit. So clearly there are still people who dont know or don't have the sense enough to care. There is still more work to be done and awareness to be spread.

I am not asking any of you to go to Uganda and look for Joseph Kony but I would like for you to watch the video I posted at the top AND the bottom. Yes, it is 30 min long, but what are you going to do for the next 30 minutes? Play angry birds? Take even 10 mins and watch part of the documentary I have posted. No need to donate any money, although I totally support that - just wducate yourself on who Joseph Kony is. I am not asking you to facebook it or blog about it just watch it for YOURSELF and that will help - it is one more person who is informed.

A challenge for my readers who are fellow bloggers. Do what I have done if you care about this cause! I commend Ruthanne and Endear for blogging about this already and anyone else who has made any sort of effort. While reading Ruthannes post I came across a whole movement of bloggers for Kony 2012 which I am now a part of. We can all be a a part of something amazing and like the video says - we can let JUSTICE define 2012.

Please watch the video when you have a few minutes. Let it be your background noise while you get ready in the morning or while you play angry birds if you choose to do so. Then get to work because you know it is the right thing to do.





Tuesday, March 6

Shit Kids Don't Say

Check out the latest "Shit People Say Video" called "Shit Kids Don't Say" featuring my 7 y.o nephew Will. Clearly I think it's probably 40x funnier than it actually is because we share DNA but he's pretty funny. Enjoy! x

Sunday, March 4

STFU : The 8 I Hate

Last week I read a blog about all the things the writer hated hearing because she was bigger. I was inspired by it and thought I would write one of my own tonight. I can't remember for the life of me who's blog it was but if I remember I will be sure to show her love and link up. Most of my examples are probably the same but let me know what you think!

The 8 I Hate
things i hate to hear as a big girl and as a big girl who is losing weight :


"Girl, you are just big boned!"
No, I'm fat. In fact, if you look at the women in my family, they are tall and slim on my mothers side and my father is a tiny little man. Also, the assumption that even if I lose weight I'm still going to look like an ogre is not particularly flattering, thanks. I'm fat, whether my bones are big or not.

"Listen, from the back, you are so narrow"
Great. I'm glad that when you can't see my huge stomach I look slimmer to you. If only I could just go through life only showing the back side of me. Super glad you noticed my narrow flat ass too - I love that my stomach is bigger than me ass, thats what all guys find attractive.

"Its just water weight."
100lbs is a lot of fucking water weight. Must be every fucking glass of water I've ever drank sittin in there.

"Guys love curvy girls!"
Too bad I'm fat then. I'll let you know when my hips come in.

"Well... at least the black guys go for you!"That is offensive on a lot of different levels for a lot of different people.

"yeah.. but you have SUCH a pretty face."
Fabulous. Total shame about the rest of me, eh?

"You are so young. It will all just snap back!"

Yeah except I've been fat my whole life, it's not like a pregnancy where you have a belly for 5 months.

"You look great. 10 more pounds and you will be fabulous. No more than that though"
Except I need to lose 45lbs just to be at the high end of my healthy weight range.


Don't get me wrong, I get so much amazing support and I am thankful for that. Sometimes people just plain and simple don't know what they are talking about and throw out the most ridiculous back handed comments. I get tired of hearing I have a pretty face because a)I don't agree and b)It doesn't mean I look good. No amount of pretty face can make up for years of feeling like a fat outcast and being obese and unhealthy.

For those of you who have been overweight, do you hate any of these comments? Do you like them? What other comments do you hate to get?

Big love,
Bailey.

Thursday, March 1

bailey the busy bee.

I'm actually not a busy person. I work 30 hours a week on average (if I had it my way it would be 50), I go to the gym and then I come home. Most of my friends go to university out of town so I don't do much when it comes to being social unless I leave the island. So why havn't I been blogging much? I'm not 100% sure.

I've been struggling with my weight loss for the last few weeks and that definitely has something to do with it. Sometimes when I mess up or I plateau I become ashamed because I don't want to let my readers down. I also am moving off the island in just over a week and the stresses of finding a new job and not having money have settled in. On top of those things, I have been off the island the past two weekends for visiting with friends/birthdays before I move.

So as for the weight loss, at this point Im feeling better. The thing is that almost 3 weeks ago I got a knee injury. I cant remember if I ever wrote about it but it was pretty bad. Basically, one of my knees finally had the biscuit after 6 months of working out hard with a body that is obese. All that weight and impact can start to stress out the knees and my knees have been bad for years (pretty sad when you're not even 21, eh?). Anyways, my knee went crazy, I couldnt even walk. So I spent 2 weeks away from the gym.

The thing about taking time off from the gym is that it sort of sets me into a cycle of bad health behaviors all around. I try to figure out how little I am suppose to be eating to not work out and still lose weight and that is really hard and the truth is I cant figure it out. Then I get frustrated, and I dont lose, and I get depressed and then I eat. Basically I NEED to remain active to lose weight, its what works best for me. Im finally back at the gym and I've had a bit of a loss so that makes me feel better. Its a frustrating struggle though, sometimes I feel like I will never get there.

I've made a few changes/decisions to try to get this losing in motion again. I decided to give up Sweets for Lent and in participation with LiveHappe's Six Week Challenge So far I'm 9 days clean of sweets! It feels good and I feel like my body appreciates it. I'm also trying to eat less processed foods just to be good to my body. Another change is joining a fb page called Nicole's Weight Loss Challenges She has different challenges all the time and while its cool to have challenges its also great to have another group of support.

Surrounding yourself with people who are going for the same goal as you is always super effective. I have my family, my friends, my friends on my fitness pal, blog friends and the new ones at Nicoles. I have to try to make this my life so that I wont slip up. While I was traveling the last two weekends I found it hard to keep on track when no one else was and everyone was drinking and eating pizza and it was all eating out. When I move I have to readjust and that is super scary!

Which leads me to my other news and also an effort to get healthy in a way - Im moving. I have talked about moving but I haven't gone into a lot of detail. For those of you who are interested the big move is toooooo..Truro, Nova Scotia. Okay - not that exciting aha. But it's my first time moving and settling anywhere besides home. I have done big trips but thats all they were and I was moving around all the time during my longer trip. This will be my first time getting a job where I don't know my boss, paying rent, buying my own groceries, going to a real gym and making new friends. I had to make friends while traveling but everyone else is trying to make friends too so its a bit different.

I'm nervous but I'm excited. I think this could be a great thing for my weight loss. I will have a new gym that isn't the size of a walk in closet and I will have a whole new selection of health foods. Also, if I dont make any friends, I will have no choice but to focus all my spare time into exercise aha. This could be a great thing, it could be a bad thing but at least I am taking the chance. You aren't living until you are outside the box right!

So right now I'm sort of in transition mode. I feel as though I'm reborn in the weightloss category, I'm finished my job in 4 more shifts, I'm moving away and I'm finding a new job! I'm hoping this is good for me as I'mLink definitely getting the island fever. Im ready for a change and it should give me some killer blog material..kidding..sort of lol.

I should get to bed because Im blogging which means its 1:30Am aha. I have to work tomorrow and sleep MIGHT be a good idea. Then its the weekend..and I am so happy. All my friends are home for March Break (think sprig break, you silly americans) and I have 4 days off so consider me PSYCHED!

Just wanted to ask you guys : what are you looking for with my blog? Do you enjoy my rants? Do you enjoy my weight loss blogs? What about my emotional ones that make my mom and Emily cry? Do you enjoy when I just shut the fuck up? Sometimes I feel like Im doing too much of something or not enough of something else. It is my blog so I will write what I wish but I do love my readers and wish to please you as well as myself aha. So let me know in the comments, on my Facebook Page or even in person.. or you can write a blog about it if you have a blog aha. Just let me know, get at me people!!

Big love .. seriously...its big.
Bailey. xo

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