I've decided I need to challenge myself. Maybe I do better when I'm under pressure, working towards an attainable goal or trying to win - yeh - im a bit competitive.
I've been so off track. Not like gain 15lbs off track or never get off the couch offtrack. Im definitely the scale keeps going up then down and then up off track though and cant get motivated off track. It's not fun and I'm never going to get anywhere doing that. I need to really step it up!
I've decided to set a weight goal for my birthday! My birthday is in 9 weeks and I want to lose 2lbs a week. I know that sounds a little unrealstic but im shooting for the moon so i can land among the stars or some shit like that. I actually think I can do this, I think I can do more if i put my mind to it and I'm ready to get out of this stupid fucking 211-213 rut.
So right now I'm at 213 and the goal for May 28th is 195lbs (which explains the name of my post - so clever). I've also decided that I'm going to wear and look/feel amazing in the dress (that i love and have wanted to wear for 3 months now) that my mother got me for Christmas. I'm going to take a picture of me in it now and then do before/after pics with birthday pictures in 2 months.
I realize it won't be easy, especially because I have a weeks vacation to Cuba planned and it isn't the easiest thing to maintain let alone lose on vacation. But if you watch the Biggest Loser (which I do and Im obsessed with) you know that it IS possible to lose on vacation and I can do it if I stay focused. Maybe I will get food poisoning and make a big loss! haha kidding.. sorta.
2lbs a week is pretty intense but I know I can do it and I'm going to need your guys help! If someone wants to join with me and set some sort of goal that always makes it easier. I definitely need a bit of support. Lately I've felt like no one even reads my blog anymore and I've been down in the dumps about that and everything else! So I need to get my spirits up and find the OOMPH that i need to not only lose the weight but to be happy and start bringing you guys some better, more inspirational blogs.
Thanks for the past and future support. xo
I hated posting these so much but a deal is a deal. This is me today (after i woke up so no make up or anything.. atleast I can say that) at 213. I hate these pictures. I hate my body. The picture from the back makes me want to crawl in bed and cry all day - who would ever date a girl who looks like that? I have no idea. I look like shit and Im shaped like a monster. But this is my body and this is what im working with so.. here I come 195.