Wednesday is spelled so funny, I can't help but notice when I type it all out. Thats neither here nor there though - it's weigh in Wednesday!
Last week I finally had a loss and weighed in at 226.6. This week, of course because I can't lose twice in a row and staying the same would be too easy, I weighed in at 227.2 I can't get a freaking break - I know! But honestly, .6 is not even as much of a gain as I deserved. I fucked up, ladies and gents, I lost some serious control.
I was about 12 days no sugar and then I face planted into a big pile of junk food. I was housesitting all weekend, away from my own groceries and routine, and it started out with french fries. Then by Sunday Night, when I just HAD to celebrate the Superbowl, I was eating cool whip and nacho dip. Then Monday I continued the disaster by eating EVERYTHING I could at the Baby Shower I attended (Congrats Sable!) - crackers, cheese, chips, dips, squares, mini cupcakes and punch. WHAT THE FUCK, BAILEY? I could not control myself. Then I went up to Ashleys, had some MORE chips, some pumpkin pie dip and topped it off by sharing some peanut buter pie with Ash.
Then yesterday morning I dusted myself off and I'm back at it. 100%. I have to say, something I can appreciate about myself and maybe my saving grace - is my ability to bounce back. I refuse to let the shitty weekend of shitty decisions turn this into a failure. This weekend was the tiniest of setbacks on a long, bumpy, harsh road of set backs and failures that will eventually turn into successes and get me to my goals. Life is not perfect, and nothing is easy but why would I give up after that? So that I can never ever change? At least if I keep trying, and don't make any progress, I can say I tried.
I will admit - if I have a good week this week and don't see a loss I'm going to be frustrated. Six weeks is a long time to go to the gym relentlessly and eat well and hope and pray. But i shall soldier on.. I just might have a shit fit first.
So there you have it. Check back next Wednesday to see if I finally get a good loss! Lets hope I at least get rid of the .6 from this week. Bollocks.
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